Wednesday, July 25, 2012


As I sit down to write my posts I struggle with what to say. He isn't doing good. He doesn't understand what is going on. I write this often.

The conversations I have with Spencer are mainly him telling me he is a waste and is sick of life. Me telling him he is my everything and that he is priceless. I write about this often too.

Spencer sleeps a lot. He gets up to use the bathroom, eat or to take his meds. We got him to the porch yesterday. :)

He slept most of today. Not just resting but out cold type sleep.

The last couple of days have been harder for him. He isn't talking very much. If he does talk its just to say he doesn't understand. I don't know what else to tell you.

Calli is tired. I am tired. Spencer is tired.

Here are a couple of pictures from the last couple of days.


  1. It has to be so hard watching him suffer like this. Not only physically but emotionally. It has to be frustrating for him to not understand. As much as I hate to say this but I think it'll be better when he goes. Hopefully Calli can get some rest too. There will be a lot of people who will miss him though.

  2. I agree. I pray for him to be released from this. I truly feel he is only holding on for Calli. My heart hurts for her.