Saturday, June 30, 2012

Day 705

Today was a really good day. It was busy and full.

I picked up Alexa from EFY at 7:30am. It was a good. She was tired so she took a nap until 10.

I had a car today to do all the running around needed. That was so nice.

I invited Spencer to go to the movies with Lex and I. We saw Pirates a band of miss fits. It was cute. Spencer's sister said we should go see it about a month ago. So we went to the dollar theatre. It was fun. Spencer said he liked it.

After the movie we went to lunch. It was nice to have a date with Spencer. It was a good afternoon outing.

We took Spencer home at 3:40ish. Lex had some things she needed to still do. We got back to my house at 4:30. I took a nap until 5:30. Alexa packed her stuff.

My friend Andrea came with us to the airport. We dropped off Alexa. When we got back to Provo Andrea and I returned the car I had today and then went to dinner. After dinner we hung out watching the Food Network with her roommate and sister. It was good.

Spencer rested through the evening. I'm sad I didn't get to see him as much as I would have liked to today. I am thankful for my friend hanging out with me tonight though.

I will see Spencer tomorrow. I look forward to that. He is such a good man. I am so thankful for him. With as happy as he has made me in the last 2 years, I fear for the mourning period after his passing. I take comfort that he will be out of pain with a working mind after this life. I know he has struggled with the was the surgery affected his recall and with the way the tumor is affecting his mind now hasn't been easy.

Friday, June 29, 2012

Still Day 704

I worked. I came home.

When I got home from work I went to Spencer's house. I sat by him until dinner time. Chris and Mati made dinner.

Mati made these Russian crape type things. They were taste. We had them with jam. I liked them mucho. It was also fun to be able to visit with Mati while she was making us treats.

After treats Spencer went back up stairs. I stayed with him and talked until 8:45. He was resting and I was going to see a friend.

My friend Julia and I went to Lowe's and bought a fridge. That was fun. We then went to Denny's for a treat. I am now home. I am tired. I need to pick up Alexa tomorrow. It should be fun.

Day 704

There is a country song. It's called 'What a Beautiful Day' By Chris Cagle. The Song tells you about a relationship. Day 1- 50 years. “Day 18,253, That’s 50 years. Here’s to you and me.” I love this song a lot. You can view the music video with the URL I have provided

I have known Spencer for 704 days. I have been thinking about that a lot today. Why? I don’t know. I was just thinking about how we progressed in our relationship.

Day 1 – Played mini golf, had dinner and watched a movie. I thought he didn’t like me. I liked him.
Day 4 – I made him dinner at my house.
Day 29 – I pinned his flower to his suit coat at Derek and River’s Wedding. I hadn’t seen him since day 4.
Day 43 – We went grocery shopping after Derek and River’s second reception. (This was our first trip to Winco.)
Day 44 – He came over for Sunday dinner.
Day 45 – I cut his hair.
Day 96 – He finally held my hand.
Day 101 – he Kissed me.
Day 185 - We decided that we were boyfriend/girlfriend
Day 188 – He told me he loved me.
Day 650 – He’s cancer landed him in the hospital.
We have been together for 704 days. I was really hoping for 50 years with Spencer. I wouldn’t trade any of those 704 days for the world. I’ve seen him almost every day since day 43. I sure love him.

The women in my family die young. I don’t think I have 50 years of life left. I think I’ll be around maybe until I’m 65. That’s 23,725 ish days. I’m 26 years old. I’ve used up about 9,177 ish of those days. I only have roughly 14,548 days left. I’m really okay with that. It makes me kind of happy that I don’t have to be on this earth as long as some people. Spencer said he'd be there to say "hi" when I die. I'm sure my mom will help make that happen.

Thursday, June 28, 2012

1,2,3,4 I'm just gonna keep on counting...

So I went to bed really late last night and could hardly see to read my scriptures. There was no way I was going to be able to write a blog. So here I am sitting at work once again. (In case you were wondering, I live at work.) I didn’t post yesterday. That means my ramblings will be about yesterday’s events rather than me sitting at my desk talking to David about his stalker who is sitting 3 chairs down from me today… She’s special…

Wednesday June 27, 2012

At 10am I put a pork roast, about 4 oz of beef broth, cumin, taco seasoning and 2 small cans of green chilies in to the crock pot. I set it to low and walked away.

The rest of the morning I cleaned my house, made raspberry cream puffs for my friend, talked on the phone with Spencer, ticked off a wasp nest, and went to the grocery store twice. Let’s say it was eventful.

I went to Spencer’s house at 2:30. He came and sat by me on the couch while everyone else got ready to go. We all went to see Brave. It was really cute. It wasn’t anything like I was expecting but I still liked it.

I also decided that I need to get all the Pixar movies. I don’t really like the Toy Story movies. I really liked Ratatouille. I love the Incredibles. I liked Cars. I did NOT like Cars 2. I’m not going to go through the whole list of movies. (I ramble) I do need to get them though. I want my kids to be able to watch them. My Disney collection is awesome. Might as well add the Disney Pixar stuff.

After the Movie Spencer and I were dropped off at my house. We made a really yummy lime cilantro rice. We pulled the meat that had been cooking all day. We got everything ready for dinner. We made Café Rio style Burritos for dinner for his family. They turned out sort of AWESOME. Really, this rice is so good. It makes me happy every time we make it. It smells amazing and its tasty.

After we cleaned up from dinner Spencer went upstairs to rest. He had been going strong for most of the day and was tired. I was tired. I sat with him until 9. He was practically asleep. I also had plans to go do baptisms at the Temple with my friend Julia.

Julia and I did baptisms and were back to my house by 10ish. I made us sandwiches and we talked and laughed until 11:30! 11:30 is SOOO past my bed time. Haha. I was trying to not fall asleep as we were talking. I am such a light weight now. Once it’s dark, I’m a no fun.

Julia and I also sprayed the wasp nest with poison. I hope they are dead. I am going to spray them again tonight. I don’t like bugs but I will leave them alone for the most part. If they invade my space, its self-defense and I will kill them.

It was a very eventful day.

Thursday June 28, 2012

Oh look, a new day. I am sitting at work and I get to ramble! MUHAHAHA!

Because I stayed up so late I got a ride to work this morning from my friend Andrea. She is in my RS presidency, Her sister is my visiting teacher, and she is one of the few people I know in my ward.

Work has been fun. David’s stalker is driving me nuts. He gets to work a little before I do and he always makes sure that either Julia or I sit by him. Depending on the desk he’s at we sit on either side of him. Stalker Chicky is a divorcee with 2 little kids and has a crush on David. David is a happily married man with 4 kids. He treats his wife amazing and she wants that. She is trying to be a home wrecker. We protect him. We’re nice. Chicky is a nut. When David’s family came in to say “hi” she was bitter and failed to recognize how cute David’s 3 month old Greta is. Greta is little an squishy and CUTE!

I didn’t hear from Spencer while I was at work. He had a really busy day yesterday. He needed the rest.

Julia had and asthma attack at work. Her brother came and got her. I rode her bike home for her. Utah is on fire right now so the air is awful! I thought I was going to die on my way to her house.

Spencer text me asking when I was going to be home and if I was still coming over. I was running late because of riding the bike to Julia's house. I forgot to tell him. I felt like a doofus.

When I got I his house we talking for a minute and then came down for dinner. He cousin came over and visited for a while. That was fun.

Spencer was tired so he went to go lay down again. I was able to sit with him until 9pm. I had to go home then. It's the worst part of my day having to leave Spencer. When I left tonight Spencer grabbed my hand as I was walking away. He held it tightly. It was so sweet I wanted to cry. He is so wonderful. Who ever he gets to be with through eternity is going to be so lucky. I am very jealous of this woman I don't know.

I should have been in bed over an hour ago. I took my time getting ready for bed... Good night.

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Just another day in paradise

I am trying to not be a lame blogger. I was really good about posting every day for a little while. I then became a slacker.

I have not been sleeping well and I am just too tired to really write anything. So, I am sitting at work as I type this. I figure if I can type out the first half of the blog at work and then finish it up before I go to bed. This is my plan.

The only problem with this plan is that I now have 8-10 hours a day to ramble. That is good and bad. It’s good that I get to write down everything that I think. It’s bad if you don’t care and you are reading my blog. Haha. Jokes on you! This is my sorry in advance.

I sometimes like to free write at work. It’s never anything of substance. That’s the problem. I could tell you funny things that happen at work…

We had a lady named Constance Butts. Her alarm was going off and everything David would say her name for a message or for dispatching or whatever everyone would giggle. We are all children here. When David was done with the calls he said “She must have really loved her husband” I think I would have kept my last name if I were in her shoes. Anderson is way better than Butts. Haha We’re so immature.

I am trying to not just free write. I could ramble and go on forever about needing to pee, being hungry, wanting to stretch, stupid people not knowing how to work their alarms, AWESOME older people calling in and telling me the alarm is false and then telling me stories and things like that. (I actually really like listening to the old people telling me stories.) I could ramble about that for a long time. I could make this blog post a novel. I won't do that. Haha This is why I don’t blog at work. I never have anything of substance to write about until the evening. Even then it’s my rambling about what *I* found to be important throughout the day. If I type at work, there is no telling what I’ll ramble about! See, I’m doing it now!

We had a team meeting today. It was kind of fun. We are really obnoxious. There are 17 people on my team. We didn’t go over any of the things we needed to. We ate cookies and joked around. It was awesome. It was like having an hour long break randomly. Then after my team meeting I went on my regularly scheduled break. HAHA

Once I got home I went over to Spencer's house. I sat with him for a while. He was tired. I was glad to be with him while he rested.

He needed to vote today. So we went with Stephen and Calli to the Court house to vote. It was Sam's first time voting. That is way weird to me.

After voting we went back home and Spencer went up stairs to rest again. He was really dizzy. It was hot and really bright. That wasn't helping anything.

Spencer asked me what I write in my journal every night. I told him that it's just the days events. He asked in the past what I've written. I finally understood that he was asking what I wrote about him. I told him that I write about how sweet he is and kind and I went on and don't want to embarrass him... That everything we've done I write down. From going to the grocery store to the kiss goodnight. He asked who would read my journal. I told him my kids would after I'm dead. He asked if he would be embarrassed by my journals. I told him yes and so would I. That's why I have to be dead for people to read them. Haha
He then asked me if he was going to heaven. It always hurts my heart to heart that. I told him how he was lucky to able to finish his work here so quickly. That he must have an important job to be called him so soon. I really think he has a major roll to play. Why else would he have had some of the trials in his life that he has? I asked him if he would be there when I die to say hi. He told me he would be. :)

At 8 we had dinner. We sat at the bar and talked. I love being able to talk with him. We decided we're going to make dinner for his family tomorrow night. I really like cooking with Spencer. I think it's going to be fun.

I was home be 9:30. It was a good day.

Monday, June 25, 2012

Quick update

I am a sucky blogger.

Katie moved. She is in Washington. I miss her. She has great things ahead of her and her family. I am happy for them for making it back home.

Work is still work.

Alexa is down for EFY.

Mati came home! She's had tons of stories and pictures. Spencer told me how happy he is to have her back.

Spencer's head is hurting again. :( I was sad for that. I don't like when he is in pain. I wish I could just take all of this from him. He is still really dizzy. He is so brave and strong. I am very impressed with him. He gives enduring to the end a whole new meaning for me. He is amazing.

Spencer, Chris, Alexa and I went to lunch today. It was fun. We ate at Brick Oven. We then dropped Alexa off at EFY.

I worked. After work I came back to Spencer's house. We all had dinner together. It was nice. I really like Spencer's family.

I was home be 8:45. Spencer and Sam saw the entertainment center I got from Katie. I hooked everything up all by myself the way Spencer had it hooked up! I was so proud if my self.

Spencer and I took a couple of pictures together. They will not be shown on this blog per request from Spencer. They are cute pictures though. :)

This is my quick update.

Thursday, June 21, 2012

The Story

The last time I posted was Monday. I try to keep up with posting but sometimes I am just too tired to even pretend to type up something to post. Here is Today and the past 2 days…

Tuesday June 19, 2012

I had the day off. I was going to rent a car to drive up to Salt Lake to go to the Apple Store. I wanted to get the screen of my iPod fixed. Spencer told me that his dad was going to head up to Salt Lake to pick something up and that we could just ride with him.

Upon calling the Apple store to see if they could fit me in, I found out some news I didn’t like. They couldn’t just fix my screen. They could replace my WHOLE iPod. It would cost $100. I don’t want a new iPod. If I wanted a new one, I would have bought a new one. Spencer said he’d pay for it if I wanted to do that.

I thought he was so nice for offering to pay for it but I declined. We didn’t end up going to Salt Lake. I didn’t want a new iPod. I would rather have a screen that is cracked than a new iPod. Spencer surprised me on our first Christmas with THIS iPod. Not the one I would have gotten at the store on Tuesday. He picked the one I have. He wrapped it. He gave it to me. He worried about what to put on the one I have. I am a sentimental fool. I’m okay with that.

He had a harder day. He rested for most of the day. I sat with him. It was a good day. We were together the whole day. He rested. We talked. I loved it. I love him.

Wednesday June 20, 2012

I rented a car. I had a ton of errands that I needed to run. The plan was to have Spencer come with me. He wasn’t feeling up to really going anywhere after breakfast. I sat by his bed for a little while before I left to get my stuff done. Olivia came with me for a couple of hours. She was fun to hang out with. She’s a good kid.

Olivia and I went to Costco, Wal-Mart and Winco. She had to be back by 2. I dropped her off then and kept going with the rest of my errands. It was fun to do some running around with her. It was also nice to talk. She’s a really good kid.

I retured the car around 3pm. I didn’t need it anymore. I then rode my bike to Spencer’s house. I sat with him. We talked about the day. I told him about errands. He told me about how he’s been resting.

We came down stairs around 5:30 for dinner. We watched a movie and I was home by 8:45. It was a really good day. I got everything done that was needed done. I spent most of the day with Spencer. It was a good day

Thursday June 21, 2012

I am back to work today. Not my favorite pastime but I have no other choice. I am frustrated by work. It cramps my style.

Alexa will be here Saturday. I am still trying to figure out how I am going to go get her. I will have a plan though. I may have to buy someone a present to use their car. Haha.

I worked from 8-6:30. I was home by 7:30. I helped a friend get home safe. She had a migraine. We were both on bikes. I didn't want her to get hit by a car.
Nothing too exciting happened at work. Just another day of stupid people not knowing how to work their alarms. Here’s a clue, when the alarm is sounding, type in your code and hit off. If we call you and don’t want the police showing up, ANSWER! Haha.

I sat with Spencer for about 90 minutes before I had to come home. I'm old an lame. He came with when I left. I always like it when he rides along. I like having those extra 2 minutes.
I heard a song that made me cry. I live it mucho. I wish I was smart enough to add a link. The lyrics are perfect.

The Story

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you
I climbed across the mountain tops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules
But baby I broke them all for you
Because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
You do
I was made for you
You see the smile that's on my mouth
It's hiding the words that don't come out
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No, they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what
I've been through like you do
And I was made for you...
All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you

I love it.

Goodnight Neverland

Monday, June 18, 2012

Just another manic Monday...

I worked a 10 hour day at work.

I was able to spend the evening with Spencer. We had dinner. It was nice.

He went to lunch with his friend Rob today. He rested for a good portion of the afternoon / early evening.

I was there for fhe. I helped the girls clean the kitchen. Spencer went to bed. Stephen gave me a ride home.

It was a long day. I'm glad it's over. Spencer was for sure the best part of my day. He told me I was the best part of his too. I sure love that man.

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Good Idea Bad Idea

Good Idea: Calling your girlfriend when she gets home from work to tell her about your day, ask how her's was and tell her you love her.
Bad Idea: I am failing to see how any of that is a bad idea.
Result: Spencer is a good boyfriend.

Good Idea: Sitting on your couch with the AC on, eating a root beer float and watching a movie.
Bad Idea: watching the same movie over and over and over and over... And over again. Quoting the lines as the actors are saying them.
Result: I need friends.

Good Idea: Working a couple extra hours to help out at work.
Bad Idea: A 12 hour day that may result in my murdering someone.
Result: Tomorrow when I get home from work, don't ask for anything. I may shank you.

Good Idea: Making lemon cream puffs that are sweet, tart and melt in your mouth.
Bad Idea: Making lemon cream puffs that are sweet, tart and melt in your mouth.
Result: The cream puffs Spencer and I made found a home at his house. They also disappeared shortly there after. :)

Good Idea: Picking up on things quickly.
Bad Idea: Showing up everyone else being trained on inbounds today...
Result: Getting the best 15 minute break ticket ever. Hand written and personalized!

I shall leave you with a picture of the cream puffs, my break ticked extraordinaire, and a couple of pictures of Seattle that make me home sick everything I see them.

Thursday, June 14, 2012

I fear the lameness. So I am posting

So it has come to my attention that I am a lame blogger. I have been told this by someone who will remain nameless. So, I am now posting because I fear the lameness.

June 12, 2012 Tuesday

I worked. It was good. Well… about as good as work can be.

Right as I was pulling into my parking lot Spencer text me. “Do you want to come over?” Heck yes I do! I told him I’d be over as soon as I changed my clothes. He said that he was excited to see me. Seriously! It made my heart skip a beat.

I still have such a crush on him. Whenever I get a text or email I can’t help but to smile. When I see him, I light up. I love him so much. I really like that I still have a school girl crush on him. He is wonderful.

I went over there and we sat upstairs for a little bit before coming down for dinner. He told me that Mary was coming over to say Hi.

After dinner we sat out on the porch for about an hour talking with Mary. It was fun to visit. We laughed and talked while her kids played with air planes. I thought it was really fun. She also brought over a pie. I wanted to eat said pie. I didn’t get a chance because I left shortly after Mary did. I had a date with Katie Marie.

Katie and I went to Applebees and listened to tone deaf people try to sing. It was fun. The staff at Applebees are troupers! They have to put up with so much. Katie and I then came back to my house and watched RENT. We are old and were tired at 10. Neither one of us said anything until 2am.

June 13, 2012 Wednesday

Spencer and I went to breakfast at Village Inn. We also were able to eat pie. It was free. We got 2 different kinds so we could sample. It was awesome. I love Spencer and I love Pie. It was the best morning ever.

We then walked across the street to the mall. I had a bill to pay and needed new shoes. I don’t like shoes. I wouldn’t have bought new ones if it weren’t for the fact that I walked through the soles of the ones I was replacing. I didn’t know what I wanted. I walked to Spencer with a different shoe on each foot. I was going to have Him pick. He then replied with “What if I bought the other pair?” Spencer bought me shoes. They are blue, tan and white plaid. They are pretty much the coolest shoes I’ve ever owned. He picked good ones. The ones I bought are just black. They are kind of boring.

After we got back from the mall he needed to rest. I sat with him for about an hour before I went home. I wanted to sit with him. There was just has so much I needed to get done at home.

I broke my toilet brush cleaning my toilet. That was funny. I went to go buy a new toilet brush. My bathroom is clean. My bedroom is clean. My kitchen is clean. (The toilet brush was only used on the toilet)

A little before 6pm I went back over to Spencer’s house as per instructions given by Spencer earlier in the afternoon. It was Alexis’s birthday. She is 23. We all had dinner and watched her open presents. It was fun. I’m glad I was able to be there.

After dinner Spencer and I talked a bit before I came home. He and Sam gave me a ride. Sam is a good sport for driving us and Spencer was nice and sat by me in the back seat of the cab in the truck.

I could have posted this last night but I chose not to. I wanted to sit on my bum and do nothing.

June 14, 2012 Thursday

My back hurts. It hurt some yesterday. Today it is trying to kill me. RUDE! It made it hard to sit at my desk. I was glad to come home.

Spencer is out with his friends tonight. They are up in Salt Lake seeing another Alien movie… Boys….

I am really glad that Spencer gets to go out with his friends. I like that they go out. I wish my car was working so that we could go do things too.

My friend Andrew is getting married in 2 weeks. I am beyond jealous. He brought over his announcement. The pictures are cute. He is 6'4 ish 5 and she is 5'3. I love it! I cut his hair. It was needed. It looked like I'd shaved a cat. There was so much hair on the floor.

I have been at home doing really nothing. I have cleaned my house. I have made me dinner. Sadly in that order… I don’t want to clean again. I already did that once today. Ha!

This is my story. I have a few pictures from the last couple of days.

Monday, June 11, 2012

Date Night

Spencer came over after work. We made dinner together. I like being able to cook with him. We made chicken pot pies from scratch. They were tasty. I told him as I was making the guts what was in it. I told him once he has a perfect knowledge that I expect him to make dinner all by himself. :)

After dinner we watched a movie. It was Ratatouille (I could be spelling that wrong.) It was cute. I'd never seen it before. I liked it.

We made cookies too. Mint Chocolate cookies. Spencer loves them. They are yummy.

Spencer and I talked. I live talking with him. I wish I could record all of our conversations. Like tonight, I would love to just listen to it over and over again. It was so nice.

Spencer was my high today. He told me I was his high today too. I love him much. I wouldn't trade him for the world. I would however trade the world to keep him.

Saturday, June 9, 2012

Saturday is a special day

I got zero sleep last night. Why? I don't really know. I do know that when I was able to sleep for about 90 minutes this afternoon it was wonderful.

I didn't go to work today. I couldn't bring myself to move. Around 11 I decided I needed to go outside. It was a nice day and I shouldn't be cooped up all day. The fresh air did a world of good. I went and exchanged my Temple dress. I liked my other one. It was really pretty. I think the one I got will be better though. It's simple and it won't wrinkle the was my first one did.

Spencer went to a bike race up in northern Utah. Sam was racing. Chris, Alexis and Spencer all went.

I went over to Spencer's house around 3. We sat out on the porch for a bit before he went to lay down. I sat by his bed until 8. While he was sleeping I was able to hold his hand. He would squeeze my hand every so often. At one point I tried to move my hand and he grabbed my wrist so I couldn't. It was really sweet. I like that he didn't want me to move.

After dinner we ate cupcakes. Hannah made them. They were tasty.

Spencer and Sam gave me a ride home.

I would say today was a good day. Spencer was really wiped out from his trip. I'm glad he was able to rest his afternoon. I'm glad I was able to sit with him. He's my favorite.

Thursday, June 7, 2012

June 6, 2012

I’m lame and didn’t post about the awesome day we had yesterday.

Spencer called me at 8:24am to see if I wanted to come over for breakfast. I of course I accepted. I got dressed and headed over. Spencer has set the table for us all fancy. It was so sweet.

He has a dentist appointment at 11. He asked me if I would go with him. He has had a broken crown that has been bothering him for months. He asked me while we were waiting for him to be called back if I thought it was stupid that he was getting it fixed now. I told him no and asked why he would even ask me that. He said so matter of fact “Because I’m dying.” I told him how anything he wanted to do right now wouldn’t be stupid because of that. He’s a silly boy.

After the dentist we came back to his house and sat out on the porch for about an hour. It was nice. I like holding his hand. We talked. We made dinner plans for tonight. We also talked about maybe doing a Sealing session soon. That way he has done everything. He was too tired to do it today. He went to lay down after we talked.

We had dinner at 4. I made fondue. It was fun and really tasty. After we both over ate and rolled ourselves out of the kitchen, we watched a movie. We watched “What about Bob?” I’ve not seen that movie in maybe 20 years. It was nice to have a quiet night at home like we used to. I sure love that Spencer kid. I think I’ll keep him a little longer. He’s nice.

After the movie we sat on the couch talking. It was nice to be able to just talk. I love the ease there is in our conversation. That we can talk about anything with each other. I love him so much.

He went home at 8. We are both light weights and get tired easy. Haha. I went to bed around 9:30.

It was a good day. I am glad that Spencer and I were able to have out date. I miss the time we had to ourselves. It was such a good evening. I will miss days like this. A lot.

It’s funny how I was planning on him being my forever and I end up only getting him for 2 years. At least it’s been an amazing 2 years. I wouldn’t trade on minute of the time I have been able to spend with Spencer for the world. He has been the best thing that has ever happened to me. I have so many memories that I will cherish. I am thankful for nights like this where I am able to make more. :)

I will miss Spencer. I told him when he dies that he needs to tell my Mom that she is ruining my life. I also told him to be prepared for her to pinch his bum. He has a cute bum. She will pinch it.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Spencer's Big Day told through my eyes...

This morning Spencer came over for breakfast. It was nice to have a mini date like we used to.

His Stake President didn't break the Temple down like mine did. So I showed Spencer the paper my Stake President drew for me.

After breakfast He laid on the couch with his head in my lap. We listened to Moses 1-4. It was awesome.

We walked back to his house. His mom took measurements for the hem of his Temple pants. He then went up stairs to rest. I sat with him for a while.

I came home to get ready for this evening. Sam, my personal chauffeur, picked me up at 6 to take me to the Temple. (I like Sam. He's one of my favorite little brothers. If Kyle keeps being a turd Sam will take the top spot!)

I wasn't sure I was in the right session until I saw Grandma White. I sat with her. She's nice.

The session was awesome. I am so glad I was able to go with Spencer and his family.

I had dinner with Spencer at his house. I stayed for scriptures and prayer. I tucked Spencer into his bed. I kissed him good night. Then my chauffeur took me home.

It was such a good day. I took pictures at the Temple. Stephen will be sending them to me. I will post them when I get them. :)

Monday, June 4, 2012

The okay day... Good evening

I worked today. This week is 4 10’s. I thought when I got this job that it would be awesome. It is, I just don’t like getting off so late. It only leaves me with a short time to be able to see Spencer.

I had an actual medical alarm that made me cry. Her husband was weak, dizzy, unable to walk, shortness of breath, and a host of other things that his a bit too close to home of me. It was all I could so not to cry with her. Once I got off the phone from the alarm. I took a few minutes to compose myself. I then called Spencer. I needed to hear that he was okay. (Well, as okay as he can be.) I had worked myself up pretty good.

Work seemed to pass by in a daze for the most part. In the morning I am able to see that the time passes by rather quickly. Then comes the afternoon. The minutes drag by.

I didn’t get to email with Spencer during the day. I was sad about that. I like it when we are able to chat a bit during the day. I was glad I was able to talk with him for the few minutes this morning.

Once I got home I went to Spencer's house. Today is Stephen's birthday. We all had a nice dinner and then went for a ride. 6 of the Hales kids and myself crowded into the back of the truck and we drove around Provo. It was fun.

Sam, Olivia, Hannah and Spencer gave me and my bike a ride home. It was nice of them.

I am not laying in be thinking about what a good evening I had.

Tomorrow Spencer goes through the Temple tomorrow. It is so exciting!

The picture is one my sister too. It was awesome. I really like it a lot.

Sunday, June 3, 2012

The last couple of days

Have been awesome!

The evening of June 1st

Dad, Dedra and I went and did baptisms for the dead. Dedra hadn't done that in 20 years. It was awesome to be able to do that with them.

The morning of June 2nd

Dedra ironed my dress.
I curled my hair.
Dad packed his bag.

We went to the Temple. It was amazing. Dad, Dedra and River were there for me. It was wonderful. After our session we were able to be do a sealing session! So within a 19 hour period I was able to do everything possible from Bapism-Sealings. It was amazing! And to end it all they let Dedra and I change in the bridal room! We ate cookies. It was awesome.

River couldn't make it to lunch but Spencer could. It was nice to have him with us. My high for the 2nd was when we picked up Spencer. I went up stairs to get him. He met me on the little landing. He put his arms around me. He kissed me. Then he told me how proud he is of me. I love him so much.

June 3rd

I worked. That was lame. My family went home. They are lame! (I mean that with all the love in my heart.) {this is a secret message to Dedra. You poop your pants. That's a compliment.}

Spencer invited me over for dinner. It was yummy. I spent most of the evening sitting next to Spencer in his room as he is resting. I love being able to just sit and hold his hand. It makes me happy. He is always the best part of my day. The saying goodbye almost
Brings me to tears everyday. The seeing him is always worth it though.

I am so thankful for the last few days. It has been amazing and very eye opening. I can't wait to go back to the Temple. It's such an amazing place.

My pictures are Spencer sleeping and one of him as an old man. This was the site I wanted to wake up to for the rest of my life but don't get to. He was supposed to grow old with me. I looked forward to us being grandparents. I will miss him. I love him.

Friday, June 1, 2012

May 31, 2012

I worked from 8-4:30 today. I do everyday.

After work I brought dinner over to Spencer's house. I put the food down and walked up stairs to say hello to Spencer. When I walked in his room I said "Hello love of my life." He was weak. His voice was quiet but he still grabbed for my hand and was so excited to see me. He smiled big and said how happy he was that I was over. He told me he loved me. It was the best greeting ever. It was all I could do to not cry.

After our hellos he asked me "Am I good? Promise?" "Will you remember me? Promise?" "Do you love me? Promise?" I answered the questions with tears running down my cheeks. He is so scared he won't be remembered. I told him that he is unforgettable.

After dinner he wanted to lay down. He is really weak. We watched The Iron Giant as he was in bed. I forgot how funny that movie is. We laughed the whole time. He also held my hand the whole time. He would every so often squeeze it. He's sweet.

It's moments like that that make my heart skip a beat. I had a crush on Spencer when I first met him. I couldn't even make eye contact with out blushing. He was/is just son cute. I never really lost that crush feeling. My heart still flutters when I get a text. I still get flustered when he calls me. I can all but feel my heart beat out of my chest when he holds my hand or kisses me. I'm glad I still have such a crush on him. It makes when he tells me he loves me that much better.

I went home around 9:30pm. He was falling asleep. My dad and sister are in my living room as I type this. Tomorrow we buy what I need for the temple. Saturday at the Provo Temple at the 9:20am session I will be getting endowed. I am so excited. If you can make it, please come.

Today was another good day.