Work made me want to punch people. Cami is finally back. I have missed her. I was to help her with a project that no one explained to me. When she walked in and saw that nothing was done it was frustrating to her. I didn’t even get logins until yesterday. Now that I understand what is going on things are moving much faster. There are over 1,800 pages of special instructions that we have to read over, make notes, call the subscribers for clarification if needed and then make changes. It’s slow going but faster now that there are 2 of us.
BEST account I had to work on today was for a man named Bich Ba Do. NO JOKE! That is the best thing ever. Everyone had a good laugh. How would you like to go through school with that name? All I can think of is walking up to them and saying “Hey Bich.” I am going to hell in a hand basket! That is so funny to me.
Cam is still in a bad mood. He has been walking around like he is going to hit people with a riding crop. 2pm didn’t come fast enough for me today. I did a little happy dance when he went home.
I forgot to bring a granola bar for after my bike ride to work. Sam said a bunch of stuff about carbs verses protein. I wasn’t listening as well as I should have. So by the time lunch came around I could have eaten a whole elephant. Good thing for me the café down stairs doesn’t serve elephant.
Today is Olivia’s 16th birthday. That is beyond weird to me. That little girl can now date. Holy cow. Now let us see if we can overcome the shy nature of the Hales children.
We ate corn chowder, pizza and Batman cake. It was fun. She got a sketch book and new pencils. Spencer and I got her an iTunes gift card. She was pleased with everything. I even got a hug when I left. Yes, that is a big deal.
Spencer was pretty lucid tonight. I was excited about that. We talked for a while in the kitchen as he was laying down.
After dinner he was laying in the couch in the study. We were talking. He kept saying he wasn't worth loving. That all he does is stress people. I told him that that wasn't true. That he makes so many people happy. That he is the best part of my day. He was frustrated with not being able to think. He kept saying how he hated that he was losing that. I told him that I love him. He told me that I shouldn't because he was slipping away. I should move on. That killed me. I told him that if he wasn't worth loving than I wouldn't love him. Seeing how I do he must be worth it.
He was mad at himself. He wants so badly to be more than what he is right now. He feels like a burden. I wish he could see that as much as this situation isn't ideal, he is blessing so many people. So many are given the opportunity to serve. He has blessed his family with a better understanding of the gospel. He has proven himself to Heavenly Father. Spencer is so strong and brave. It's a tragic thing that he doesn't see all the good he is doing and has done.
I will leave you with pictures of the birthday party.