Sunday, May 20, 2012

May 20, 2012

There are only 11 days left in May. This blasted month is almost over!

So I worked today. I made it to work in 25 minutes. That's my best time ever! Oh man, I forgot to tell Sam! I'll have to tell him tomorrow. Work was fine. Had a few grumpy people... Oh well.

I told Spencer I loved him randomly today. He responded with "Why?" That hurt my heart a lot. I wish he could see how good he is. I know this situation is part of the reason he responded like that. It still made me sad though. I wrote out a rather long email and sent it. I text him saying to check his email. When I got home he said he really appreciated the email and asked if I would come over.

I sat with Spencer as he slept on the couch for about 2 hours. He was just so tired. I was glad to be there. I take great comfort in watching he chest rise and fall as he is breathing. To hold his hand and feel him grip a little tighter sometimes. It's nice. I was sitting on the floor by the couch and I rested my he'd next to his. I started to cry. I had to sit back up.

I was able to be sneaky and record Spencer and I talking. I had the camera by his head as he was half asleep. We talked. The camera was filming the wall but at least I got him talking. :)

Sam took our picture. I was trying to take it but Sam felt like he needed to be in the picture too... We then decided he should take the picture. Haha.

Spencer had a rough day today. I hope tomorrow is better. I have seen such a huge change in the last week. Last Monday we hiked the Y. Tomorrow I am hoping he will be able to stay awake long enough to watch a movie. I love him so much.


  1. I'm sorry for the hard day. :( I really hope tomorrow is better. We'll probably be over to visit him this week.

    I'm glad you got some talking in. That's a huge blessing. :)

  2. I tried to listen to the vidoes. He talks so quietly you can't hear a word he said. I'm sad. I'll have to try again.