A Wednesday to remember

This morning Spencer with 4 of his siblings came over for pancakes and eggs. We all sat around visiting. It was a nice morning. At 11:00 we all got in the car and went to the show. We say the Avengers. Alexis met us there. Sam, Hannah and Chris had all not seen it. It was fun.

We got home around 2:15ish. Just in time too. Spencer had a Doctor's appointment and my home teachers were coming over.

Spencer's appointment went well. He was able to talk to the doctor about him being dizzy all the time. They were able to talk about what Spencer has been up to. Making sure he is making memories. :) They gave him a couple new prescriptions. They are "just in case" stuff.

While he was there I was with my home teachers. They talked to me about the talk President Eyring gave about Mountains to climb. That has been the talk that I have read and reread since we found out the cancer was back. Listening to Jeff talk a just about cried. Them coming and talking to me about this very talk is proof to me that Heavenly Father is truly looking out for me. It's proof that prayers are answered.

I was able to look at Temple dresses today. That was very overwhelming. I think that I never want to do something like that alone ever again. You need a mom, sister or friend. I will go back when Dad and Dedra are here.

I was able to sit with Spencer for about and hour tonight. He was tired. He rested and I sat there. We held hands. I love it when he takes me hand and says "You know I love you right?" he makes me cry every time. He's nice. I wish I could keep him.

We had a good day. I like good days.

Also, I know I told Spencer I wouldn't post this picture but I love it so much. I need to share it. This is one he took of us at the lake. It was my first and only time there.

What a day

After work I went to Spencer's house. It was nice to see as I rode up that he was sitting on the porch with Sam. He was only there for a bit before he went up to lay down.

I sat by him until dinner time. We talked a bit. He was tired and not feeling well so he mainly rested.

Some people in his was brought him cookies. They were super hero cookies! They were tasty too.

He didn't come down for dinner. He wasn't hungry. Sam and I rode to my house do he could put air in Calli's bike tire. I came back for my backpack. Spencer walked me down stairs and then kissed me goodnight.

He had people coming over and I didn't want to be in the way. Spencer told me I needed to be with people. So I went to my ward's FHE.

I locked myself out of my house and Sam drove Spencer over to unlock my door. They're nice. Spencer took a bunch of pictures of us. Her hat is so not the norm for him. He was so cute about it. I am really glad he did that. He told me I can't post them... Sorry.

Today was a big day. Spencer got his Temple recommended. I got the first half of mine. He will be going through in a few days. I will be going through hopefully this weekend. It's been a big day.

Today was a good day

I went to my own ward today. Its good that I start doing that. I love Spencer's ward. I will need friends my age when all is said and done. I won't make friends if I don't go to my ward... It's hard. I would much rather be with Spencer than be social with others.

I was able to have dinner with his family. It was really good. Stephen makes a mean steak.

After dinner Lexi, Chris, Sam, Hannah, Spencer and I went on a walk. It was fun. We walked to Memorial Park and back. I took a nice picture of the 5 Hales kids that came.

After we got back Spencer wanted to lay down. I sat with him until 5:45ish. The bishop had come over to see him.

I spent the rest of the evening with my friend Aubrey. I was texting Spencer on and off. We even talked on the phone for a few minutes.

I sure love Spencer. Before we went on the walk we were in the study talking. He asked me to stay friends with his family. He asked if he could be there when I go through the Temple. He asked if it would be okay to see me get married. He told me he wants to be there. It was so sweet. I told he is invited to every major event in my life.

It's hard to talk about things like that. I know it's good that we can. I just makes everything so much more final.

I love him. I am going to miss him. I this. I also know that he will come see the roses. When we were walking we talked about the kind of roses he should be looking for.

Today was a good day.

A day in the life

So a day in my life...

I slept through my alarm this morning. I woke up to the alarm that is meant for me to leave my house do I'm not late. Thank heavens Sam and Spencer were able to take me and my bike to work.

Work was fine. I free write between alarms. I never know what it's about. I don't read it. It's just what is going through my brain. At the end of the day I couldn't tell you what I wrote. I do know that what I write shouldn't be read by anyone... So when I'd been emailing Spencer back and forth today I put the wrong email address and sent my free writing to Spencer not to myself. (This was a BAD thing)

Spencer was out with his friends tonight. I miss Spencer when he's not around. I am lucky that I get to see him almost everyday. I need to not be so selfish and learn to share. I missed him but was glad he was able to see his friends. :)

I was going to watch a movie with my friend Aubrey tonight because Spencer was out. I got a text from him asking me to come over. So I did. He read my whole email. He was sad and hurting for stressing me. I didn't knew I'd sent it to him. I didnt understand what was going on for the first little bit. I had him send me the email... I was not in a good place mentally today. That shows in my writing. I felt like the biggest jerk ever! I am crazy. For reals crazy. Not the "haha you're crazy girl." No. I. Am. Crazy. I explained things to him. I wasn't writing in whole thoughts. Once he knew the whole picture we were okay. If you don't speak crazy you can't really read it. He isn't crazy.
(Did any of that make sense? Proof!)

I sat with Spencer until 11:30. He was so tired. That's when I left.

So weirdo chased me for over a block! I only live 4 blocks from Spencer! I was so scared. I at first thought he was running to cross the street but then he turned and started coming after me. I yelled "What are you doing?" he just ran faster towards me. I put my bike in the highest gear and took off like a bat out of hell! I was so scared! When I got home I text Spencer. He called me to make sure I was really okay. He told me that i am not to ride my bike at night anymore. That I will be getting rides. I was shaking so bad what I got home. I haven't been scared like that ever in my life.

Spencer ad I went to the lake about 7 weeks ago. We took pictures and it was fun. I finally got some of those pictures tonight. He made
Me promise I wouldn't post them. So if you want to see them text me. I'll sent you them that way. :)

So the pictures I can post are just of him laying down tonight.... And son random ones. The "NO GINA!!!" is one of the few love notes I've ever gotten. Haha. He's nice.

The things that are...

Spencer was able to go out with his home teachers this morning. They took him for a drive up the Springville Canyon. He said it was fun.

He started feeling sick this afternoon. He rested for as long as he could. His tummy has been giving him issues.

We had plans with Derek and River.

Spencer called me right at 7 when I was about to head to his house so we could wait for them. He said how sorry he was for ruining the evening. I told him that he was fine. Derek and River weren't up set. They still went out on the date. I'd planned on spending my evening with Spencer anyway. I fail to see how the evening was ruined.

We didn't do much talking tonight. He laid in bed. I sat on the floor next to him. It was a good evening.

We might go to the show tomorrow. We might get to take his siblings to see the Avengers. Sam still hasn't seen it. Olivia needs to see it again. We'll see if Spencer is still up for it tomorrow.

Derek said he'd call Spencer tomorrow. I hope they get to have a man date tomorrow.

I don't have great pictures from today. Spencer kept catching me with the camera. I wasn't very sneaky today.

Short, sweet and to the point.

Today wasn't a great day in some ways and it was a good day in others.

Spencer got a new phone, he saw his grandparents on the Hales side and he was visited by his Home teachers.

He was in a very low mood. He was struggling today. It was hard to watch.

We were talking this evening and looking at pictures. I'd found my baby book and a picture of me just days old. I had one of him just days old too. We decided we would have had cute babies.

Hoping tomorrow is better.

So here are the pictures for today.

Such a good day!

Spencer text me at 6:20am. It was an early yet good morning. We made breakfast together. It was fun.

After breakfast he asked me if I'd be up for watching The Emperor's New Groove. It's one of his favorite movies. We watched it. It was nice to just chill.

I was able to get him to compromise with me about the interview. I have a tape recorder. He was more willing to talk when it wasn't on camera. Little does he know that I still recorded him on camera. While I was asking him questions and he was talking to my tape recorder his eyes were shut. He was tired. So I pulled out my camera and filmed him. I got a good 30 minutes of talking and maybe 15 of video.

We walked around the library. I was able to get a couple of pictures. (Seen at the bottom of the blog post. He looks grumpy. He doesn't like having his picture taken. Ha!) He said he'd not been there in a long time and wanted to walk around. We did.

We then walked to the Provo Bakery. I didn't know that it existed. He said he used to go there as a kid. He would get the orange sweet rolls or cookies. Today we got orange sweet rolls. They were tasty. :)

We hung out at his house for a bit. I went home around 2 ish.(Pictures at the bottom is the post) Spencer went to Sam somewhere. Spencer and I had dinner plans tonight. I needed to get ready anyway.

Spencer came over at 6 for dinner. I made chicken curry. It was stinking awesome let me tell you. I was well pleased and so was Spencer. He asked if he could eat more tomorrow. There was plenty of left overs so he'll be able to have more tomorrow.

Spencer and I were able to have one of the best conversations we have ever had tonight. In those moments I am reminded why I love him so much and how thankful I am to have him in my life. Spencer is one of the best people I have ever met. I am lucky to have him. Even if it was only for a little while.

I asked Spencer if he would dance with me as my birthday present because we spent my birthday in the hospital. (Spencer told me he had planned on driving me to Idaho for Shari's pie for my birthday. That didn't work out due to his brain trying to explode.) We danced tonight. Well, it was more we stood there and cried. Have you ever heard the song 'One More Day' by Diamond Rio? That's the song we danced to. I am crying again just thinking about it.

Spencer said dinner was his high. I would have to say the dance was mine. It was a good day.